I DO REMEMBER EVERYTHING WHICH HAS HAPPENED TO ME.

I REMEMBER HAVING ONE PROSPECTIVE LUCRATIVE OR ENJOYABLE OR CAREER OPPORTUNITY CANCELLED FOR ME. 

THIS HAPPENED SO MANY TIMES THAT I FEEL I HAVE SPENT MUCH OF MY LIFE WITH NOTHING TO DO BUT ROUTINE WORK WHICH WAS WHAT I REALLY DID NOT WANT TO HAPPEN.

YESTERDAY I HAD TO CLEAN UP MY KITCHEN AND THE MOROCCAN CACTUS IN THE DINING ROOM. TODAY I CAN BARELY RAISE MY ARMS AND MY LEGS ARE WEAK.